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the Room ©copyright2008

Posted on Jul 24th, 2008 by Mikey_Dee : A hoot and The frumious Bandersnatc Mikey_Dee

The Room
I sit in my room alone,
all alone, surrounder however by thoughts, not alone in my head,
just alone on my bed, in my room,
Midnight hour, dead flower floats on a stream,
Wishing I could talk or I could scream,
blocked tears of many events begin to flow,
the emotions I couldn't show,
came to keep me company,
 in my room.
Bitter tears, no doubt salty like in books,
lumps in throats,
Sobs in pillows,
Shoulders from the back which shook.
In layers so deep inside my mind,
subconscious only dares to look,
 I don't dare because of fear,
that there I'll see the real me,
and absense of reality and personality, seem so near,
that I go back to live the life,
 that others for me, find so dear.

Problems arent solved in a night,
Nor in a life,
nor in a life of lives,
in the morning, in my room, I realise,
to strive to overcome
is at the centre of my sights.
(so I put away the gun)
My new life has just begun.   
                
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Tagged with: life, death, beginnings, poem
Amber : Smilemaker
about 8 hours later
Amber said

Wow, you've got talent Mikey_D! This gave me shivers… I've been with this and thru this although I've not really been it seems… your words put me there like dropping a rock onto a glass table.

Mikey_Dee : A hoot and The frumious Bandersnatc
about 9 hours later
Mikey_Dee said

Thank you Amber for your kind words, I hope that rock didn't land on your very favourite glass table. Would I be responsable?
blessings
Me

Nicole : wakingdreamer
about 13 hours later
Nicole said

very powerful… good that you can write out your feelings and feel comfortable sharing them with your family here… hugs

Julie : Waterbearer
about 14 hours later
Julie said

I am coming to Paris just to give you a warm hug. 

Much love,

julie

Mikey_Dee : A hoot and The frumious Bandersnatc
about 18 hours later
Mikey_Dee said

Julie & Nicole, while I thank you for your comments and hugs, I feel I have to clarify one point here: The I-character in a piece of writing is not neceserally the writer-and while I wrote this piece, I am not the I character, it could be an adolescent girl who finds herself pregnant and alone, it could be a middle-aged business-person of either sex who has just gon through yet another relationship crisis, or failure at work- it could be just about anybody at the end of their tether, grappling with the ultimate “solution” to the problem and considering ending it all. I hope it is a universal theme, that could apply to anyone facing a difficult situation, Of course, writing in the I-mode, rather than in the sheor he-mode makes the reader feel closer to & have more empathy for  the character. it becomes a more personal story, but it is not, my personal story. I am more imaginative than suicidal, I assure you. But I appreciate your reactions, and feel that my writing was strong enough to make you wish to comfort the narrator (the I character)
thank you and Amber too for taking the time to read and comment.

Amber : Smilemaker
1 day later
Amber said

In the land of make believe, you are more suicidal then imaginative and I have several glass tables, neither of which is the truth! You might be responsible for cleaning up the broken glass if the glass were actually broken but in this case the rock simply clattered around chipping and scarring the tabletop. So we're both off the hook so to speak!

Smiles!
Amber

Nicole : wakingdreamer
1 day later
Nicole said

Hi Mike, I was thinking more of what you have been through in the past than what you are going through now, some of which I'm sure informs your art…

Mikey_Dee : A hoot and The frumious Bandersnatc
3 days later
Mikey_Dee said

Nicole, I hope that it all informs and/or nourishes my art: I define my art at the moment as”turning a tragedy into a comedy”….. and it's a full time job,
blessings, Mike

Nicole : wakingdreamer
3 days later
Nicole said

it is indeed! and you do it very very well

Mikey_Dee : A hoot and The frumious Bandersnatc
4 days later
Mikey_Dee said

Thanks Nicole, I get  by with a little help from my friends, I get high with a little help frm my friends……… And I try to be my own best friend, and treat myself with the love & compassion I get from and give to others.

Nicole : wakingdreamer
4 days later
Nicole said

that's very important to remember… thank you

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